As i look around me these days, i find that life isn't quite the suspiciously viewed conspiritorial stew i once ingested and rushed hard to swear it was when i was always looking to justify the schitzo theory of the day by assigning it to a pile of random chemically imagined facts.By localizing my perceptions boundaries and focusing in on the once considered trivialities of my immediate surroundings instead of the paranoiac immensity of the grand plot and all of its potential soul threatening danger i have come to realize that my once considered impossible to attain personal perception of  obscurity was never really far away.whether or not i have actually come to some sort of true understanding of realty or even just taken myself to a comfortable enough of a place in my own mind and soul that allows me to preach and practice the form dictated company line i cannot say.i do know now that free of the shackles of me i find it easy to wake up each day and just exhale in a gesture of languid optomism with the clear and crisp immediate recognition that every thing is alright and just as it seems to be,instead of coming to with a sharp inhale of who am I,where am I at,and what the fuck is this shitI have a lot of things on my mind and a way of looking at my life thru the rear view mirror that kinda reminds me of some old coartoons that were called fractured fairy tales, it might seem twisted up and mighty weird but believe me you WILL take notice when i get to the moral of the story.and i am all about morals strange as that might seem to those who have had the experience of interacting with me in the gutter in full warp factor 9 flow.i didnot know it then but there was a destination and , every  little atoms worth of my perceptual idiosyncrancies had a place in the formulation of the not so still life landscape of my emotional philosophy.RIGHT OFF THE TOP LET ME GET ONE THING RIGHT UP FRONT AND PERFECTLY CLEAR.!i do not do any soulsearching out of regret or remorse or whatever when it comes to a single aspect of my lif playing life's game out there on the streets.my mantra applied to me as well as everyone else."If you were in the game you were fair game, and if you barked at the big dogs you better have a bite to back it up.STAY TUNED. .