in the begining when sanity was once again in charge

Battered yet not quite broken,

Traumatized yet not completely incapacitated,

The heart of my souls matter moaned "Resist".

Resist the chemically assembled ensemble of hair trigger emotions

frustration,despair,regret,fear,shame,guilt and self pity,

as in off key unisom they serenaded my sub-conscience sirenlike,

seeking to lull,entice and irreversibly draw what was left of my free will onto the rocks and shoals of my personal addictions sea of death's darkest shoreline singing,

"Just surrender,It Soothes".

Battered yet not quite broken,

bloody toothed yet not quite rendered speechless,

The heart of my souls matter spit and croaked out"Resist".

resist the whiplash snapping,neck cracking,bitch slapping assault of bulk packaged

concentrated from 100% pure self abuses bad instant karma knocking brass knuckle torn cheeks back and forth to a cadence call of

"take that and that and that and that on and on and on and on"

in pendulumlike perpetuity taunting,

"Just surrender,It Soothes".

Battered yet not quite broken,

chemically steeped yet not quite rendered pickled,

The heart of my souls matter slurred"Resist"

Resist the daily altar call your self dosings false prophet

all dressed up in oblivions robes posing as a saviour.

A  personal messiah preaching a gospel of sensory relief by a logicless flood of insensibility

  a tsunami surging over the dank landscapes of my concious awareness

seeking to drown my sanity in tidal waves of claustrophobically degenerating endorphins

imploding and screaming

"Just surrender,it Soothes".

Battered yet not quite broken,

stereotyped yet not quite rendered cliche',

The heart of my souls matter then declared "Resist".

Resist the eulogy being chiseled on the toxic molded walls of the inner essence created

to be called you,

Resist the epitah chemically etched on your poison ravaged face.

"Resist"

"Resist"the slow suicide by self cruxifiction of the heart of your souls matter with the rusted spikes of a calloused aura of chemically inspired immortality

and a warped sense of carnalities temptation being nailed in with a twisted up and tainted perspective,

along with sensory deceptions jackhammer of false justification by your personal insanities

paranioac misconclusions posing as rational emperical deduction,

"Resist"

"Resist"the continual assault of your addictions affliction that is battering the unbroken heart of your souls matter,

"Resist"

"Resist"

"Resist"

"It Soothes"